Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Beauty Radiates from the Inside Out

I'm a firm believer that beauty does radiate from the inside out. Over the past 42 years I have met some really beautiful people, beautiful not because they had the perfect body and flawless face, but beautiful because they had the most amazing hearts possible. They were kind, loving, giving, respectful and supportive of others, full of integrity...oh, the list which makes up my own definition of inner beauty could go on.

Sadly, this week I seemed to forget about the importance of inner beauty. I will admit that I stood in a place of terrible judgment. I was extremely critical of a person that does have a giving heart and a passion for sharing love and kindness with others. So by my own definition of inner beauty that person is a beautiful person. Instead of remembering that, I took one look at her image and then began the following dialog:

"Oh my goodness! You are line backer material and those bags under your eyes, well, they're sad! There is not another person on this planet who will find you attractive now."

With those hurtful words, the light quickly faded from her hazel eyes. The happy look on her face was replaced with a look of hurt and sadness. What's worse, her inner beauty was stifled and quickly hidden in the shadows of the negative thoughts.

I owe that person a huge apology and since I know she is reading this post, I will publicly apologize to her.

Pam, I am terribly sorry for the nasty things I said to you. I wish I could take them back, because not only were they unfair, but they were unkind, and not true. From here on out I am making the promise not to stand in judgment of you, but rather celebrate the beautiful person you are and the wonderful things you bring to the world.

My friends, I hope you too will take this to heart and remember, beauty truly does radiate from the inside out so it's important to not snuff the internal beauty you possess with self-deprecating comments. You are beautiful. We all are!!


Monday, March 16, 2009

Leggo My Ego

This weekend I was absolutely shattered so I took some time to recharge and relax. Part of my recharge time was to watch Hay House Films new movie featuring Dr. Wayne Dyer called Ambition to Meaning; Finding Your Life's Purpose. Not only did I walk away feeling inspired and energized, but I came away with a few powerful messages that I can't help but share.

1) Dr. Dyer talked quite a bit about ego and how ego often drives us. While I believe that whole-heartedly, what really hit me was the acronym he used to define ego;

E=Easing
G=God
O=Out

Whether you believe in God, Buddha, a higher power, (fill in the blank), one thing is clear when we become disconnected from our source, the energy that helps us to stay present and grounded, that is when our ego comes out to play. When ego drives us we then get trapped in the notion that the more we have the more successful we are, the more powerful we seem, the more important we appear. It becomes a never ending cycle which in turn can renders us vulnerable to all sorts of fear (fear of loss, fear of failure, fear of success). I was then reminded of something very important, it's not how much you have that defines you, it's who you are at your core (your heart) that does.

2) When we come from a place of "How can I serve?" not only are we detached from the outcome (being attached to the outcome is another symptom of ego), but we come from a place of abundance, giving and receiving. To give you an example, when I focus on how many clients I wish to have and how much money I wish to make, the phone stops ringing. When I shift my focus to my purpose, to why I am coaching (how I can serve others) the phone rings. Coincidence? I think not. That's not to say that I am not clear on how many clients I want in my practice or what I wish to make each month, I am..it's just not my focus. Instead of focusing on lack (basically) I am focusing on what I can and do give which helps me to stay present and open to all the potentials available.

3) One of my favorite lines from the movie was, "Don't die with the music still in you." That line serves as a great reminder to not allow my ego to get in the way and hold me back from taking chances, putting myself out there, and stepping outside my comfort zone. I don't want to look back over my life only to realize that I still have some music left in me  to be shared and played.

My friends, if you have not had chance to watch this
movie, please give yourself a treat and do. For now, your's truly is going to "leggo my ego".


Monday, March 09, 2009

Sailing Or Docked At Port?

"A ship in port is safe, but that's not what ships are built for. " - Grace Murray Hopper.

As you all know I'm a
quote junkie and so in my quest to find more quotes to add to my quote library I stumbled upon this little jewel. What a great reminder! It has actually forced me to take a good look at that the things I want in my life; have I set sail on them or am I still at port anchored firmly? Well, let me see...

1) To have a thriving coaching practice. - Sailing
2) To give back to others and support them in finding their voice - Sailing
3) To teach at the collegiate level - Still at port (Time to chart my course and pull up anchor)
4) To create a loving, healthy, passionate relationship with an amazing man - About to embark and pull away from port (Check in with me over the next few months. )
5) To travel more - Still at port
6) To earn an income that allows me to support my family comfortably and give back to the community - Sailing and continuing to chart the course
7) To redecorate and continue to turn my home into my dream home - Sailing slowly, but have faith that all will continue to fall into place.
8) To dare to live out loud - Definitely Sailing

What's cool.. I'm farther along than I thought. Man, am I grateful for all the amazing opportunities experienced and the adventures just on the horizon!! There is something to be said for reflecting; it truly does show us where we are sailing and where we may need to just pull up anchor and let the wind carry us along.


Monday, March 02, 2009

Sh*t! I Thought I Had Mastered That!

Have you heard the saying, "The Universe only puts in front of you the things that you have yet to master?" Well, that's a saying that smacked me upside the forehead today. There was an issue from my past, it's an issue that I thought I had mastered. I thought I had let it go. I thought had forgiven, but not forgotten. Come to find out I didn't master it, nor let it go, and not only had I not forgotten it, but I guess I hadn't forgiven either.

What kills me is not that I hadn't mastered this issue, it's that I allowed this issue to potentially drive a wedge between myself and someone I love dearly. I allowed my own residual anger to get in the way of being the supportive and loving person that I want to be in this situation. Frankly, not only was I still pissed off at the past situation and the person (come to find out), but I was pissed off at myself for allowing it to get in the way. So I did something that I suggest to my clients when past issues leave some residue; I wrote a letter that will never get sent. In that letter I puked out all the things that I was angry about and then I destroyed it.

In doing so I allowed myself to get as angry as I wanted (without involving anyone else). I allowed myself to say whatever it was I needed to say and without guilt. Now, I am holding myself to moving forward and keeping the awareness created by this morning's situation. As James Arthur Ray once said, "Holding on to past anger and resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die." I refuse to continue to drink the poison and I refuse to allow it to cloud the good.